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If you're looking for Ronan Lynch, I'll be sure he gets your message, because he can't be bothered with his own phone.



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[mintly]

[gansey murmurs right through noah's fingers, not dislodging them to speak.]

No, that's not what I mean. It isn't that I can't kiss her, it's that there is always, always the temptation to kiss her, for her to kiss me, and temptation is much, much worse than simply being unable. I could be with someone it was impossible to kiss. Possibility is the hard part.

[casperdisaster]

'Possibility is the hard part'.

[Noah quietly echoes Gansey's words. Ain't it the truth, 'Possibility is the hard part'. The possibility of having, if only briefly, it's torture. It's easier of the avenues are closed entirely, easier to let go of a want for something that's entirely out of your reach.

He takes his fingers away himself, letting them slide down to rest on Gansey's shoulder before leaning in to kiss him briefly on the lips.]

I'm sorry. I always find a way to kill the mood.

[mintly]

I'd almost think you were doing it on purpose.

[except he doesn't think that, it's clear from the way his arms move around noah, from the fondness in his voice.]

I still don't understand why you think you're taking advantage by giving me something--by being someone I want.

[casperdisaster]

[Noah isn't sure either, to be honest. He never had this problem when he was alive - he just went with the flow, took everything as it was given and tried not to think beyond that. Loyal to those he loved, dismissive of those he didn't, because the rest of the world didn't really matter. Of course, the ones he was loyal to were never...

Maybe that's it, though.]

I think... it's just weird for me... to be able to have someone I want so badly. I ... I don't think I've ever been able to, before.

[Whelk. Blue. Something always stood in the way of the having, either lack of interest or lack of ability.

This is difficult to wrap his mind around. God, he does not want to fuck this up.]

[mintly]

Maybe you should give it a try. It might not be so bad, you know, having what you want.

[gansey nuzzles into noah, kissing the corner of his mouth with just the barest brush of lips.]

[casperdisaster]

[Except it's awful if you lose it. The potential is the worst part, just like he said. Except Noah also can't bring himself to stay away, not when Gansey's lips sweetly brush against his own like that.]

I'm trying. I promise I am.

[mintly]

[it is awful if you lose it. but, in gansey's opinion, it's more awful almost having it, but not quite. he runs his fingers through noah's hair, tucking the other boy's head into his neck.]

I know you are, love. And I'll wait. But don't think you're taking advantage of me when I want you. That's not a valid excuse.

[casperdisaster]

[Noah gives a pleased sigh at Gansey's touch. He cuddles closer, breathes in the scent of the other boy.]

... It was really hot. The... holding the hands up.

[mintly]

Yeah? It was, wasn't it? I'll remember that.

[he smiles into the side of noah's head, still stroking his hair.]

The way you moved under me...you make the best little sounds.

[casperdisaster]

[Noah gives a little huff, pressing his face to Gansey's shoulder to hide his blush. He was trying really hard to hide his sounds too, but... well Gansey was right there and all. With only a little hesitation, he legs his arms wrap around Gansey as well, fingertips brushing against his spine.

Even if Noah did have another little freakout, his temperature remained steady.]

Um. Glad you liked them.

[mintly]

[gansey's back flexes just a little at that little shivery touch to his spine, and he hums, pleased that noah finally wraps around him.]

I wish we didn't need to be quiet. Maybe someday.

[casperdisaster]

[Noah smiles a little bit. He likes Gansey's back. He likes the muscles on Gansey's back.]

What, like Adam and Ronan taking a weekend vacation?

[It's supposed to be a joke.]

[mintly]

[not the best joke ever, but it has gansey chuckling anyway.]

Maybe someday they'll be preoccupied. Or we'll go somewhere else. Plenty of abandoned places around here, although probably a limited number of marshmallow beds.

[casperdisaster]

I like the marshmallow bed too much. I'm never going to leave it. I will spend the rest of my days in it.

[mintly]

Well, they have to leave the house eventually, and if you're going to be spending the rest of your days in bed, things will someday come out in our favor.